2010 may not
have been a bad year. It just needed to be a great year after my 2009.
I probably did
not notice how bad 2009 was since I wrote a lot more. It was not actually
the writing, but more likely the publishing. That is weird because I
did not have a lot to say, and it also led to poor writing habits. Damn
the news media.
I do not mean
the conservative bullshit that fed my depression upon returning to
my parents in 2009, but the Illinois Central College newspaper, The
Harbinger. Writing movie reviews, no problem. Writing opinion pieces,
big problem. It was not the let down that I always had to endure when
the satirical bite was removed, but is was wanting to save the ideas
for pieces for the paper. Because of that, I was not writing the stories
when they came to mind. Thus, my production was dramatically less, but
the college audience was larger, so it was a necessary sacrifice. When
you are an unattractive 29 year-old with nothing to offer, you have
to take any attention you can get, even though it is more of a delusion.
Again, 2009
sucked. My highlight was selling out to a college newspaper. Based on
that, wanting to kill myself if 2010 was not an improvement seemed just.
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